In the last couple of years I’ve been changing my opinion about myself. It’s worsening.
Today I noticed something at work that seemed weird to me, but at the same time a good practice. Let me explain. I have a colleague that has a bad temper and usually say things without pondering and under strong emotion. I’ve seen him having quarrels with people at worseveral times, and this morning I’ve watched him in lively and relaxed talk with two workmates with whom he had problems before.
Some might be thinking “What’s wrong with that?”. And that’s when we come back to me. If I were one of them and have heard what they’ve heard I’d never manage to have a good relationship with the guy again. It’s very difficult for me to abandon resentment.
I felt really bad about myself and my inner feelings. I’d like to be a better person, but it’s very difficult.